na na na na — na na na naI — I feeel so high tonight.Girl wont you ask me why?I’m just happy all of the time.In my mind, my mind,the sun does always shine.Oh girl wont you ask me why?I feel so high tonight.I feel so high,and don’t you ask me why?I’m just happy all of the time.I feel so high to night.In my mind,the sun does always shine.Girl wont you ask me why?I feel so high tonight.na na na na — na na na na     – Infinity

There’s a quote from a friend of mine that goes “Bright light!, Bright light!”. That’s how I feel now. Surrounded by white bright light. A quote seem to step out of the line: Let there be joy, and there was much rejoice.

Weekend plans: GeekPizza, taking a walk, sleep until noon, ITK anniversary, sleep until noon, take a walk, dinner, cinema?
what’s your weekend plans? Hope to see you all at the usual places 🙂

I suck at it. Especially when the secret will be known to the whole world + their dog anyways. This particular secret I’ve kept, or tried to keep, for about one week and two days now. The past few days have been far worse with regards to keep it tho, after it became apparent that there was something in the air called love. When you meet someone that you feel interested in, attracted to or even might enjoy to be with as more than a friend you start acting different in a lot of ways. I came to realize that a while ago, and to be quite frankly; I wanted to be with her. For the rest of you: I want you all to know one thing for sure. I’m so happy right now. Life seem so good that I can not imagine anything that will make me stop smiling at the moment.

In the real world, outside my fluffy white clouds of love there are still things happening tho. Kicking off the weekend tomorrow with the GeekPizza at 1900 hours. That’ll be good. I don’t think I’ve been going to any GP-events for about two months. I look somewhat forward to meet that usual gang of suspects and view their reaction to some things that they might not expect 🙂 Saturday will be all good and better. ITK are turning five! Being one of the four new kids on the block you may think that it will be somewhat weird for me to be at any kind of celebration of ITKs five year anniversary, but you’re wrong. ITK make me feel at home. I do what I love and people enjoy the things we do. Hence, to be with ITK feels like something I’ve always been missing. Another piece of the puzzle. The anniversary will be kickstarted with a little wine-and-cheese party or something like that at soon-ex-leader Magnus’ (donkey) house. Then we’ll go eat dinner at this fancy resturant, and party all night long.

That final paragraph I couldn’t get myself to write the other day.. Here are the three little words I did not write, just for you Jorunn: I love you.

To some level people express their love as something of a feeling from inside that spread around their body and beg for their surender. On top of that the world, or maybe the commercial world have created this image of love as something ‘red’. Along with the commercial image of red as the color of love there are a historical trail that shows that red have been favoured as a romantic color up through the times.
The color red are all over when people think, talk and act in love-related events. Why? I sugest that the commercial technocrats who decided that yeah, ‘lets make love red’ should go dig up someone to love and look deep in their eyes. Love is at least partially green. Dark green. Like the fields of green in the Shire of Tolkiens Middle Earth, or like the green man on the traffic-lights just before the bulb shut down. So, since we have a big public, world-scale mistake here, we need to correct it, or maybe not so. If you look deeper within what people do to other people they love you may find that the second most used color are purple. Third comes.. yeah, green. In this three-color scheme you find most peoples desires and wishes for a lovelife. Green for hope and joy, red for the passion and love while purple for loyalty and lust. That’s it then. I really like all of them. I think I’m a tad traditional tho, and would probably go with something red if I were to buy something romantic. Midweek. My new favourite day *:)

Ok. Granted. I have to sit in Windows to test if it helps me do my job better. So far I’ve not been having a too open mind about it. Windows bork.bork.bork and all that. Yeah, I do prefer Linux for my daily dose of work, fun and chat, but, at work I may have to adapt some to the ‘new breed’ of technology we’re selling our customers. Maybe I’ll learn some valueable tricks this week while I sit in Windows XP. Perhaps I may be able to do dualboot sometime next week if my boss feel like being nice. Maybe maybe.

From yesterday morning until now I’ve tho tried to adapt. I’ve added Mozilla Thunderbird as emailclient, OpenOffice for documents and spreadsheets, Opera for webbrowsing, putty for ssh, aMSN for chatting and WinSCP for secure copy of files to all the Linux-machines I would want to access. So, what’s left is the sh*tty interface called Windows XP with all it’s bells and whistles. Like I explained to a coworker; “I prefer being able to use ‘on mouse-over focus’, not ‘click to focus’. I also prefer being able to use virtual desktops so that I can stick web-browsing and daily tasks with documents etc on one desktop, Windows-Remote-Terminal-Services-stuff on one, and email and ssh etc on the third. With this Windows XP I can not do that on this laptop. 256 MB RAM and 800Mhz CPU does not make it a beast in Linux either, but atleast I can use something I’m used to, and that, I think, makes me able to do my job more efficient.”

In other parts of my mind, I’m still smiling. The big smile is plastered over my face and even now, how bored and BOFH I may sound over this little OS-war I am still smiling. To have someone to care for is really actually what I’ve missed in my life for so long that I don’t really recall how it feels until now. It’s amazing. It makes me happy. You make me happy.

[update 12:40] After doing some work I decided to spend the rest of my lunchbreak creating some more poems, and putting some of the older ones online. If you want, you can go read them here.

When I came to work this morning, the workstation I use had crashed. Again. It’s not like it crash once in a week or so, no, this baby crashes once a hour at worst. This ofcourse, was a known problem with the previous user too. He got a new one, and I got stuck with this crap. Well. I decided to complain. By all means, I’m doing a quite technicaly job here, and need a propper work-tool for the tasks I do every day. Think again. From worse to pure hell. Windows XP Pro. F*ck that. My boss decided that yeah, lets try install windows on it, see how it enjoys that. I don’t like it at all. I actually _hate_ the sloppy gui and the everblue desktop. Bah. YES, this is my rant, and rant I shall.

If you’re employed by someone to do a job, you do their bidding the 8 hours every day that you’re getting money from them to do that job, so I’ll be using Windows XP Pro if that’s what the Gods want around here now all of a sudden. Sure. BUT, what I will not do is to be stuck in this crap of a workstation with 256 MB RAM and not enough buffer space to write to disk while it reads from it. How can someone complain about such things? Well, I’m going to do one of two: 1) get another job and say goodbye. 2) change things from within. What I’m going to do I need to think over some, but, be warned. I don’t enjoy working in Windows one minute more than I have to, so, IF you happen to be a customer, and call in 17:00:00:01 (Yep, that’s seventen hundred hours, colon zero minutes, colon zero seconds, colon zero one tenth of a second, I’m not going to take your call until I get a better workstation that I can *work* with.

Got a job you might want me to look at? Give me a call.

After a weekend with Mas (amoc) at Samfundet, getting drunk on beer and whisky twice in a row it was good to relax some on Sunday with a meeting in HSFT, then at my grandparents house were I had dinner. After that I took a long walk and hooked up with Anders (andai) at Solsiden. Went home, found Mats still sleeping on his bed after 13 hours! woha. Woke him, and then we had a NetCore boardmeeting. Very good meeting. Got to do a lot of things we have been in need to talk about doing for some time. Sorted out who’s doing what and why. Stuff like that.

Then, at 10 pm life went from good to magical. That’s all I’m going to write about it. Took a long walk, did some chatting about the weekend, and went home after that. If I am to describe my feeling inside, it’s like this weblogs subject; Light as a feather, a white little feather from a dove, just like the one you can see in the Forrest Gump intro. I don’t really think I’ll ever be able to describe fully how I feel. Good night.

Since I’m going to be all alone *grin* this weekend I’m going to party like it’s 2004.. oh wait, it is 2004, and even more wait, I’m not alone either! Dang. Early this morning (0820) Mats (amoc) touched down in Trondheim for a few days visit. There’s no plan, no schedule and no Idea what to do or how or when. That doesn’t matter much tho. We’ll go to some parties, say hello to the usual gang of geeks, eat some pizza and do some NetCore planning. Very good stuff.

Yesterday were great. One of my best days in many years. Not only did i get to do things that I care for, I also got to make some food, take a walk, watch some DVDs, relax on the sofa and actually feel pretty good about life in general. When you read this you will probably think “oh no, here we go again”. Wrong. I’ve asked the right things in this weblog for the past days, but since I also have the answers to what I ask for, I will now stop bothering the whole world with it. In some parts of my mind that gives me a very good feeling, yet, in other parts of my mind I want to scream out loud, sit on the top of the statue in the city square and shout, show the world.. Eww. there we go again^DD.. Anyways. I wish to say thank you, a deep thank you, from within my heart. You know who you are and there is no tide in this world that can keep what I feel at bay.

This day will be good too. Since Mats got to town I haven’t done much more than work, but, that’ll change at 1700 when I’m done here (at Grep). We’ll buy food and beer and eat and drink while we do some geeky stuff like configureing my WLAN to use WEP, or even weirder, do some NetCore planning of a new project or five. Then we’ll go to Samfundet, and get drunk. Return (insert vitty quote about old norwegian rockbands here) will do their concert, and I’ll probably sing along on some of the classics. After the concert it’s time to get over to the drinking again. I guess we’re ready for the first bus Saturday morning home or whatever.

One final paragraph is in order to have here. It’s just, I can’t get myself to write it, yet. You who it is for, know what I wish to say. Now is the time to shine, I’ve been on Mars, and the view to Venus is great. See you soon. :-*

I feel myself getting older, sitting on my sofain the position like yoga, till my mind passes overthe solar system, my wisdom nova, I am the controllerI begin to loosen up my shoulders forming each cornerinto the suns 8 points, then I, begin to rise like heliumescape in the milleniumm, two thousandmeditating to the soft note of a violinI’ve been on Mars!Everything brings in,Heavy Mental day, the day you will experience somethingHeavy Mental, never done, Heavy Mental..Information begins the gatheringstarting the pattern and stargate towards Saturnbetween the eye socket is where I will build my sky rocketyou don’t need any passport, all you need is a thoughtsuddenly, the soul becomes hot as coalthe flame blows from out my brain holes like a volcanothe brain begins to process as we start the conquestfrom out the physical bondage, the thoughtlaunches, voyaging 144 billion light years through the shadows of your imagininationnow open your eyes do you see the flaming arrows aiming at pharoahs inhibitionsas we begin-racing like a sparrow through the narrow populationseeking purification, the destination is unknown, yet we travel far.Heavy Mental. Life is, Heavy Mental.Love is, Heavy Mental.

Still smiling. Time to sleep, with my eyes wide shut.

Yesterday a norwegian newspaper (Dagbladet) decided it was time to ‘break some news’ about an old story that happened 8000 years ago. The ‘news’ bare intel about the fact that parts of western Norway were flooded by a tide wave up to 45 meters tall after a very dry tide the same morning. Well. Imagine surfing on top of that 45 meter tall tide wave as it plunges down through the fjords. That’s really how I feel now. Get it? Up there with the clouds. It’s bright, it’s warm, it’s cold, chill, hot, exciting and actually very very nice. Sometimes it even makes me shiver, as if I were really cold, yet I feel warm like lava inside. The difference between my tide wave and that boring old hog from 8000 years ago is that mine doesn’t dry out after a day and roll back into the ocean. Nah, this tide wave of life that I’m riding just moves forward second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. In a few days we may add week by week too I guess.

To those who may not get the idea of what the h*ck I am trying to spill out, read the inking of the past few days of weblogging, then add some tomato soup, a few nights when it were impossible to get any sleep at all or very little sleep. And, ofcourse that big everlasting smile on my face. In due time you will probably get a clue how the story goes or something like that. Until that, just deal with the fact that I am probably, from my point of view, the happiest geek on the planet. Rants off. Enjoy the smile 🙂 — Still smiling. Magic number right now: 510.. That was at 0848.. The Magic number have now morphed into 173.

Let’s see. What have I done at work today? Taken some phonecalls from customers. Had lunch, 3 pieces of bread with chicken salad and some milk to drink. Then I have ranted some about the failures in the routing on some of our network, hmmm.. What else? No, actually there haven’t happened much here today. All in all I’ve been sitting duck here, trying to keep my eyes up. The problem is when the effect of the two HyperMints I had this morning wears off. That happened at about 13, so the past hours have been a real madhouse. I can’t really listen to music either. I have two real options. 1. Put the headset and the music so loud on that I wont be able to hear when someone ask me something, or 2. keep on being tired for 50 more minutes and then go home and sleep one hour before the ITK meeting. I guess the only right thing to do is sticking with number two.

Since the pizzas at the ITK meeting are a tad out in the horizon still I’ve granted myself two pieces of thin crisp bread with no topping. Just to keep myself awake. Something to keep the wheels turning. Still smiling, still very happy. The happiest geek around, that’s who I am. *:)